The jump!

I'm a dreamer.

I dream about change, about the possibility of something new and different.

I dream about changing the routine, breaking out of the norm.

I'm a prayer.

I pray about what God wants for my life.

I pray about my dreams, wants, needs and crazy plans.

Today I thought to myself, "what would I do it I got out of the boat?"

9 times out of 10 my dreams are just talk, nothing ever happens. It satisfies my need to imagine things differently, and then I go about living my life.

Here are some examples of my "dreams" (side note: I had to put away a lot of pride to write these down)

1. Moving back to Ohio in '08.

2. Selling our house, twice. (we lived in the house for 3 years, tried to sell it twice)

3. Thought about kids more then once, blog about it a few times

4. Researched buying a boat, a different house, a car to pull boat....

5. Got another dog, then got rid of said dog

All of those things required some action, but in the end I was virtually left the same.

I guess my point of this is.... what if one day God's will really aligns with my "plans" and I have to jump? What if I'm asked to take that leap of faith?

Honestly, it makes me a little sick to my stomach and excited at the same time. I think I got so use to dreaming big dreams, but living the same reality, that if I had to follow through with the plan it would be hard.

My prayer is that I can seek God more, listen more and be quiet a lot more. Does anyone else struggle with dreaming?