This year we decided to spend one holiday in Ohio and one holiday in Raleigh. I felt good about our decision because last Christmas didn't really go as planned and I was looking forward to only making the drive once. So we went home for Thanksgiving and spent extra time with the family to make up for the time we wouldn't be there for Christmas.
Well, as hard as I try, Ohio is where Christmas is in my heart.
We put up our tree and decorated the house, but no one has seen it.
I will make dinner and all the fixin's, but only Mike and I will eat it (Lucy will probably get some too).
I feel bad admitting that I am not really looking forward to this Christmas. Mike has tried so hard to make it special. He is so excited about opening presents and spending time together. I love my husband so much, I don't need a holiday to celebrate that. I think Mike could hold me in his arm all night, but something would still be missing. Not being with my family just doesn't feel right. So this year will be our first and last holiday without family. Take em or leave em, I love them. Either they are coming to Raleigh, or we will go to them. The traditions and special meals we share will never be taken for granted again.
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