Thursday, November 20, 2008

Crossroads

I feel like I am at a crossroad in my life. I feel like I am on the verge of something really big, but I want to hold back.
There are so many good things in my life right now. I have a wonderful marriage, one that gets written in fairy tale books. I have a wonderful family that would sacrifice anything for me and my happiness. I have a playful dog that wakes up with a smile and loves me even when I am at my worst. I have a house that can hold all my friends and serve my love of hospitality and creativity. I have a job that drives me crazy and happy at the same time. And I am surrounded by God's beauty in my friends and in nature. It's all great and very comfortable.
But then an opportunity comes up that could change everything. An opportunity for my family to start new things, meet new people, reconnect with old friends and gain new purpose. I find myself at this crossroad with no answers, no signs on what to do, so many things unknown. So I search for God, pray for direction and find peace. I'm trying to understand what it means to not worry, to trust and let go. It's working. The more I surrender, the less I try to control, the better I feel, because it's not on my shoulders. Isn't it funny that the more we follow what God instructs us to do, the easier life gets? My Father is a pretty smart dude!

"But blessed is the man who trusts me, God, the woman who sticks with God. They're like trees replanted in Eden, putting down roots near the rivers— Never a worry through the hottest of summers, never dropping a leaf, Serene and calm through droughts, bearing fresh fruit every season." Jeremiah 17:7

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